I Feel So Horrid About This…

I honestly feel so bad for posting this, but I need to tell you.

I am going to discontinue Starlight. If you don’t know what that is, it is my current novel that I started recently set in a fantasy world of my own creation, about this warlock who is trying to find her parents. [There’s a lot more to it, but that’s the simple version.] I have realized that fantasy isn’t really my thing. I was kind of struggling to write it and had a lot of contemporary ideas floating through my mind. In the future, I will probably try to pick up a fantasy story again, but for now I want to stick with what I know.

I think one of the reasons I’m struggling is the world. I actually got the inspiration for this story from world-building and several posts I read about it. I enjoyed creating the world and all the creatures, but once I got into the story, I realized that it just wasn’t my thing. There were too many technicalities to figure out, like how there was an ocean nearby and farming land and a forest and mountains, all in the same area. I like having something to work with, like the real world. And even in dystopian, you still have Earth to use.

The characters also were very difficult for me to write. I had an original idea for Starlight and Xen, but it changed, just within two chapters. I couldn’t get their characters right and I was constantly making them more sarcastic or changing a feature.

The main reason, though, is that I’m not very interested. I told myself that I was going to finish all the novels I started from now on [you don’t even know how many unfinished stories I have], but I realize now that that goal, although it means well, is not very realistic for me. I have now decided that until I have the first four or five chapters of a novel, I will not be sharing it with you guys or posting it on any website. I really don’t want to have to do this again.

I feel really bad about this, considering that I have also recently announced that Nakoma will not be finished in the near future. Hopefully, I will come back to Starlight in the future, but for now I’m setting it aside and working on an edgy contemporary. I will start outlining soon.

I would like to thank Bridget @ Stay and Watch the Stars and Evi @ Where Books Never End for volunteering and beta-ing Starlight. Maybe you two would like to take a look at Bloggish in the near future? :) You two are amazing and I am so grateful that you would spend some of your precious time on my novel.

To end on a happier note, I would like to remind you that my first installment of Feminist Fridays will be tomorrow!

I’m super stoked about this, so be sure to check tomorrow on my blog for my new feature. Also, the signup for My Hero Monday will be at the end of the Feminist Fridays post. I’m sorry for not posting it sooner; I’ve been doing a ton of travelling in the past week and a half and my computer kind of hates me sometimes. But I will be sure to have that up tomorrow, and hopefully have the schedule up by Sunday if possible. If not, I will take the first Monday and have everyone else on later dates, so don’t worry.

If you have never heard of My Hero Monday (aka MHM), it’s a linkup I created where bloggers do a post about a female hero every month. It’s a great way to learn about famous women who have made a difference, because I think we don’t have enough female role models who we learn about in school.

Sorry for the double post today, BTW, and for my very crappy review of Four.

I hope you all are having a very happy new year so far. I love you all!

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24 thoughts on “I Feel So Horrid About This…

  1. Aw :( I’m really sad to hear that you won’t be continuing, but I understand. Fantasy isn’t everyone’s cup of tea (I have my own struggles with world building as well). I’d love to beta for Bloggish, though, and look forward to seeing whatever writing you decide to post in the future!

  2. I’m sorry to hear that this book didn’t work out for you, but I know how that feels. I have a _long_ trail of projects that I dumped half-way through due to loss of interest. Good luck with your next book, though.

  3. :( I’m so sad to hear that you won’t be writing Starlight anymore. I remember your post on it – and the idea intrigued me. But I know how that happens; I have loads of ideas but I never really end up following on them.

    Good luck for your future books ^-^

  4. wow! Good for you for deciding to ditch a project you lost interest in. Successful, published authors often comment that it is important to write about what you know. Your idea for working on an edgy contemporary novel is excellent. I beg to differ with you, though. We all continue to celebrate your writing growth and would love to read as you write, not after you have finished several chapters. All writers stop and go, you are not alone. Please don’t be shy- share with us, your faithful followers, as you create, please!!

  5. Awww, sorry it didn’t work out for you. I’ve given up a few fantasy books because I couldn’t figure out a way to explain everything. (This was around the time I discovered the magic of actually figuring out you can plan your novels before hand.)
    The first book I actually finished was a contemporary, and it really helped just to write what I knew. So have fun with that contemporary!

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